so it goes…
There are always multiple layers to my desires. It is rarely based on one premise… there are power dynamics, the emotional, the physical, and most of all the mental aspects. I don’t think most of the world has any idea the kind of deeply saturated sexual concepts I hold on to at any given moment. I like it in a way.
It is my secret… not that I hide it but something about who I am doesn’t lend itself to the dramatically intense and pornographic nature of my inner world. Although, I’m not sure what people would do if they really listened when I say so openly what I think and feel in fleeting moments of watching people and imagining and acting on what it is that could happen between us.
Maybe being that real, that honest, that direct is foreign. However, when people can handle my sexual nature, encourage my wants, and take part in creating that which I long for… it feels like a trifecta. It takes a strong person to be able to look me in the eye and hold my gaze with the full knowledge that there is something deeply sexual happening without ever saying a word or making a move.
Mmmmmmm mental, emotional, and sexual seduction = happy place.